Whats on My Mind

How do you feel when you get award ? Great isn’t it ? And how do you feel when you get an award from someone you never ever expected ? I am on cloud 11. I never knew this lovely lady reads my blog , lurks may be , but then you don’t award (atleast I don’t) the bloggers that you dont really read ..isn’t it And that too when its honesty award !! So thanks a ton Swapana for making me feel so happy!!

Requirements:-
1.I must thank the person who gave me the award and list their blog and link it
2.I must list 10 honest things about myself
3.I must put a copy of Honest Scrap logo on my blog
4.I must select atleast 7 other worthy bloggers and list their links
5.I must notify the bloggers of the award and hopefully they will follow the above three requirements also.

10 Honest things about me !!

1. 99.9% of the confesstions on this blog have been honest and straight from heart !

2. I love to write! Though I know I am not a writer , but I love to put my thoughts on paper (now computer) since I was very young.

3. But I cannot write poetry ..except from some naive attempts ..I don’t have poetic bend of mind. My writings are limited to putting my thought flow on paper.

4. I love reading my old posts. I sometimes click on the link on the right of this page and read a random post.
5. Lot of times I do things to please people (mainly relatives and close friends) , since I never want to hurt them. But many times I end up screwing things , since the disagreement that I don’t express in words , gets expressed in actions

6. Its difficult to convince me. I will give it to you if you convince me , but then thats the tough part. I cannot agree just because you are YOU !

7. I hate lies. But I do hide things sometimes , inorder to avoid conflicts. Some things are best left unsaid.

8. I love everything in my life , from the 2 men , to the family , to the living, all materlistic and non-materlistic stuff but still I sometimes miss childhood and college days and wish to relive everything.

9. I do not hate anyone , even the people who couldn’t have done worse to me. After all they taught me not to trust anyone more than yourself and your family.

10. I believe there is God and I believe he doesnot expect me to pray to him all the time. He just expects me to be honest to myself .

Phew ! That was tough but then I was 100% honest !

7 bloggers to get tagged are

Swaram
COS
Pixie
Puja
Abha
Monika&Ansh
Shruthi

.. your son tells you “Get up , ALL OF YOU“

Today is mom’s Birthday and thats whats special about this day !!

HAppy Birthday Dear Mom !!

And the good news is that my brother got a award from his company for outstanding performance for 2 consecutive years !! HR came home to invite with family for a party! Awesome , isn’t it ?? I am so thrilled.

My dear Bro , I know how much you have given in to get there , I remember your days of struggle and frustation and so it means a lot to me !! Heartist congratulations !

Love you always !

I have over 4 tags pending of the ones that I remember And let me do some before I forget these too

This one ofcourse is a special one and I wanted to post it on mother’s day but somehow could not. Better late than never.

Puja tagged me for 5 things that Ilove about being a mom. Next, find someone to link to and tag – someone from my own country, if you like, but definitely someone from another country (let them know that you’ve tagged them!) – and link back here and HBM and leave a comment.

So here I go.
Holding my little baby close to my heart and smelling him , hearing the sound of his breathing and watching him peacefully sleep

The trust he has in me for anything and everything and the feeling of being wanted , rather MOST WANTED.

His unconditional love and the way he showers me with loads of kisses and leaves me overwhemed. His caring nature , the way he behaves concerned when I cry or get hurt or am visibily not well.

His antics , his talking and his doing / saying new things everyday and leaving us smiling and surprised.

The joy of feeding him. Not only when he was too young and clinged to me to be fed but even now. I enjoy thinking what to cook for him , what to cook that he would love , enjoy and would be healthy as well. I feel on the top of the world when he says “Yummy hai” , “Tasty hai” and “Acha hai”. I do get frustrated for sometime when the effort go in vain but I am glad that the enthu to experiment for him has not yet died.

And I do not know whom to tag since most of the moms have done it already.

But I tag PG , Pippette , Neelum , TimePass and Suma

..see you on 4th ..do wait for some pics and stories And wish me luck !

I have attended 2 presentations from a group called TimeLife(Tiem warner Brand). They offer a home library for the kids of 0-12 years which they call as Total Development Program.

Though I appreciate that the books are of good quality and the concept and content is good I have my doubts.

Oneis that its mighty expensive , atleast in Indian Rupees.

Plus I am not sure if it makes sense to get a home library from one company or get books as and when needed for the kid. My point is if he gets a new book he getes attracted to it for its new. If we buy loads of books and keep , all of then in same size and look and feel ,it might be too monotonous for him.

Also that I fear that once i would buy I would insist on him to go through them and that might backfire.

So I am thouroughly confused. I need help!

Has anyone used these books ? Could you tell me if its worth the investment , not in terms of content but in terms of practical use.

This is something thats on my mind for past 2 days and I am not able to get out of it.

My very close friend went through something that I wish no one (not even my biggest enemy) should ever go through.And I came to know so recently.

Her 1.5 months old was diagnosed of a birth defect and had to go through a major surgery. He was in ICU for more than a month in the most reputed and famous(for good and bad reasons) hospitals of India.

It was a problem so severe that it should have been diagnosed during pregnancy but it was not. And then the ordeal they faced for a month due to carelessness and selfishness of hospital staff, it was all just so horrible.

I can and I wish to blabber out all the details, but then they are just too personal and I have no rights to write them on my blog.

I have mixed feelings , one of empathy for her , a woman can bear anything but can not see her kid suffering , two of anger , why she of all the people in this world , she already has had her share of problems early in life ..why again , three of self hatred for not being able to help her during her time of need and for being even ignorant of her problems for over an month , atleast I could have given her some emotional support and four of frustation and hatred for the medical system in india.

Please pray for the little one , may he recover soon and may he grows up to be strong physically , emotionally and mentally!

These were some candid clicks at Innovative Film City on Jan19th, 2009.  Do wait for pics from wedding

Its wednesday and I have joined back office after 10 days of vacation on monday but …

I still cannot get up at 6.30 in the morning , and I feel like I will collapse in few seconds when I get up.

I have been starting for office at a time when I should be reaching the office.

I forgot my ID on day 1, hair clip on day 2 and my handbag on day 3. I realized only after getting into the car.

I am still eating loads of sweets that I got from the weddings.

My bags are still not unpacked.

I still not feel the need to sleep early at nights.

I still feel I have loads to talk to my mom and other family members.

I still hear the giggling of kids and see the happy face of Aryan.

Now what is this if not hangover !

Do you remember the advertisement of an hair dye , where a young guy calls a lady in mid 30’s “aunty” and that got her thinking and she opted for a dye to look younger. Ofcourse they had to sell the dye.

But then we all go through this phase 2-3 times in our lives , when suddenly someone shakes us and tells ..you are growing old or you are looking old.

I remember once when I was in college and one kid in neighbourhood called me aunty and I was like :O. But then I thought if I was her may be I would do the same

And then in happened last year , when a gang of college kids called me aunty. I was like I woke up from sleep. Hello !! you are 30 , have a kid in your lap , you used to call all the ladies in their 30s with kids aunties when you were in college. Now its your turn

And I know it will happen again , some day when some one in 30s-40s will call me aunty. We don’t realise when we grow up and cross the line from one generation to the next.

And now there is a funny part to it , when I go to my mom’s place , all the Uncles and aunts in the neighbourhood shops and houses (as I used to call them before wedding , when in college) , I feel I am already in their generation , and I can no longer call them uncle and aunts. No doubt they had 2 years old kids when I was in college but then now they have 6-7 years old kids and so they cannot be called uncles by me

Have you faced such an situation ? When someone shakes you up and tells you , you are getting old sweetheart or when you realize that you have someone whom you called Uncle is no longer an uncle ?